A Decent Day

Surprisingly, I'm doing better today. I have no headache. I have no pain in my neck. I have not had to struggle to keep my brain inline with the time period. I've left my mind rest some today. Doing laundry and general mindless things around the house. Watching movies and relaxing my head. It's been nice.

Things are going to get busy again this week. School starts back. Hockey starts back. Band starts back. Which all adds up to a tremendous amount of running. Hopefully I'll be okay and hold it together at least for a little while.

I love it when I get through a day with no struggles. Didn't forget how to turn on the sink, where I'm at, who I am talking to, etc. It's a small thing that most people take for granted. I don't. I cherish the good days. They make me smile and feel good, at least temporarily.

Today was a normal day. Most people have normal days, daily. They don't know what it's like to have one off day, or worse one bad day. There are some people I'd like for them just once to have one of my bad days. Then they'd have a better understanding of what I go through.

I'm never looking for sympathy. Ever. It's the last thing I want. No, I don't want it at all. It's not even on the list.

What I do what is people to understand what a brain injury, even a mild one, can do to a person. How there are changes within them that they do not control. They aren't lying. They aren't making it up. It's not in their head. It's definitely not for attention. They, like me, just want you to understand that things aren't as easy for us at they are for you. We may not remember who you are. We forget appointments, parties, etc. We don't care to be solely responsible for things that could affect others - such as the head on a board, etc. It's not that we don't want to do the work. We fear we will forget something important, which is a real risk.

I want understanding. I want people to cut me a break when I forget. I want doctors and dentists to actually call and remind me about appointments, not just assume I know and then be irritated when I forget. I don't understand why others can't just go a little bit, not a lot, out of their way to assist. So I don't look like an idiot. So that I'm not feeling like a looser. A failure.

I want people to remind me of things. I want friends to remind me about lunches and dates and such. I want my kids to just remind me of their project coming up. I want people just to give me a heads up on things.

I don't need reamed out when I forget something. I don't need reamed out when I can't count. I'm embarrassed. I don't want to ask for your help. So when I do, just smile and help me. Don't make a big deal out of it. I wouldn't be asking if I didn't truly need it.

I have found some friends seem to have backed off after realizing just the situation I am in. It's as if they are scared to ask me to have fun, to come over, to go out, etc. That is hurtful. I'm still me. Just different. I'm able to go out - just call, text, email, message me before hand and remind me.

Though today was a good day. A clear day. A relaxing day.

I like these days. It's a shame that not more days are like this.